I've debated about weather to blog about this or not, because I'm a little sensitive and have a hard time admitting that I struggle with certain things. But...I have to remember that I'm blogging for the memories, and I can't worry about what people are going to think of me when they read my blog. All I care about is recording memories, struggles, triumphs, etc.. for our posterity. So don't judge me!
Anyways...I've been wanting to loose weight for a while. I have slowly gained and gained over the past year and a half. Because I was so sick during my pregnancy with Kollin I ended my pregnancy 35 pounds lighter than I did when I started. I vowed that I would never gain that weight back. Well I failed because I've gained just about every pound back.
I've tried to get into running, which I really do enjoy, but it kills my body! And I could never stick with it long enough to build strength in my legs. I even attempted to train for a half marathon, which sadly didn't last long because like I said it hurt my body and I struggled to find time each day to run. (As Eric would say "Excuses, excuses!")
So last week, after one of those mornings when I had a total melt down because none of my clothes fit, I decided it was time to change. Especially because I feel like just about everyone around me is loosing weight. So I went out and bought Jillian Michael's 30 day shred. I joined myfitnesspal.com where I can track my calories and exercise and I made a comittment to myself that for the next (at least) 30 days I was going to eat healthy and exercise regularly.
This all happened last Tuesday, so I've been at it for over a week and I weighed myself earlier today and not only have I not lost any weight, but I've gained a pound!! I'm definietly feeling discouraged, especially because for the last 3 days I've been doing 30 day shred morning and night!
I'm not giving up! Even though the scale isn't exactly being friendly, I know that I feel better. I'm putting the scale away until my 30 days are up, and I'm crossing my fingers that my dilligence is going to pay off!
You are so cute Sydney... just remember we ALL have our struggles and I think everyone can empahtize with you on this one. As we said me and ALL my sisters have been trying to do this shred, and Px90 and all of it. It's all hard!!! Anyway you are so beautiful no matter what!!
ReplyDeleteI agree with you putting the scale away. I've been using myfitnesspal also and love it. Even if the scale doesn't change I feel better when I eat better which is a great incentive! You are awesome!!
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ReplyDeleteI always want to blog about losing weight, etc... but like you I am SUPER sensitive about it, and I don't want others to focus on me, because I hate focuses on it so much. So, I totally understand. Myfitnesspal sounds so much like weight watchers so I stay stick with it because you will lose and if not, your body will change and you will feel better. But, you are not alone, trust! :)
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